I want a daughter so friggin bad. I fantasize about her hairdo's, painting her nails, and if she'll be as girly as me or tomboyish. I think about how the boys will protect her.
As many of you know, last September I had a miscarriage. My life has been a rollercoaster ride ever since that day. Some days I swear I'll never have another child. Other days I can picture my pregnant belly and the nursery,etc. Last month baby fever started to slowly creep up on me again. I believe it has to do with the fact that July is when we concieved last year. Now everytime I see a pregnant woman I get a lump in my throat and teary eyed. Yesterday I went to a Breastfeeding Awareness walk in Fresno and that really didn't help with all the pregnant women and babies around. The fact that Jaidon is going to kindergarten makes me want another baby too. My boys are growing up so FAST! I miss them being little.
We're not even in a position to try for another child and even if we were we decided awhile back that if we do have more kids we will wait until he is on shore duty. So how the heck do I make this fever go away??? It's driving me batty.